Thursday, January 7, 2010

Welcome, new year!

I apologize for it being quite some time since my last post! I know you're all on the edges of your seats to know how things are going in the midwest! I have no excuse but to update you all today because it's the second of perhaps a week of snow days! We had a blizzard all day yesterday-- it NEVER stopped snowing, ALL DAY! I have never seen so much snow in my life! The forecast for today is 1 degree and windy with a chill in the negatives. It is beautiful so quiet and white outside and I can't wait to cardboard-sled and make cavernous snow piles with my roommates! How often do we get so much work off all together!?

I went home for Christmas break and saw a new member of the family- Bear Victor Runberg (who is truly a cuddly, hungry bear!) and friends and fam I love most, many whom I was deprived of talking for months! I had some much needed heart to hearts and times of real honest open reflection. It is funny how you don't realize how different the world can be depending on who you are surrounded by and where you're located...even if it's in the same country! There's nothing like close friends who have known you forever to put you up to a mirror and see how you've grown and what you've learned. I've basically learned that God is GOOD and I need Him for each breath I take for survival because I cannot be trusted with my own life as much as I want to think I can be... what a silly idea! I have thought that for far too long even if I would not have admitted to it! God is the constant anchor in my life no matter what changes life brings, and that gives me so much peace. I'm just learning to allow God to embrace me. Why is that so hard!? My goals for this year are to trust God more fully, to live with less fear... and to hug more often!

Before Christmas, life really consisted of more salsa dancing, a late night trip to St. Louis (where we met some other incredible MVSers!), dinners at new friend's houses, playing music (I'm great at the shaker it turns out : ) going to holiday parties, having craft nights, and watching my new friendships here grow and change. I am so thankful for the community I have here of housemates, church members, and coworkers. But it's VERY different from any community I have ever been in. It's great to be sharpened by people of a different material. That sounds wierd but I think it describes how it feels well! It is a Christian community unlike the ones I am used to. It's already opened up my mind and heart, and it's just fun. It is good to know that God has spoken to me and I can trust what He has spoken to me and live into who God has made me to be fully- with all my seemingly conservative quirks and all : ) I will stand by what I know to be truth and hold to it closely while letting it be refined and tested. It's so good and necessary!

Work has been great- it was actually a lot of shopping and wrapping for Christmas. AYS tries to give each of it's clients gifts for the holidays- which is probably 200 kids and families. The best part was getting to call some of the people I case manage for emergency utilities and rent and offering them gifts from the 'adopt a family' program. These families have nothing, but get to take massive piles of presents home for their kids and themselves for Chrismtas. This, however, has mixed outcomes. One company took so many pictures of each client handing the unsuspecting receiver each gift, and reading about their 'charitable works' to this mom of four who has been on unemployment for months and is barely keeping her head above water. This woman was their 'charity' and they felt great about it- what about this mom? But earlier that day as Karen and I piled presents into the car of another mom with 4 children, she found it hard to carry a conversation because she was getting so choked up. In the end, we hugged her and told her she deserves far more than this and she just started balling. If giving is to truly benefit, it's gotta be about the person who gains, not the one who gives. We all need help and should not be afraid to ask for it. Thank you Jesus for your goodness to us needy people in every way! Home ties is going through some much needed staff changes, and I think rules are going to be more strictly abided to- which will help me out immensely! I am learning to stand my ground, and not put all of my trust in the goodwill of kids who have been denied about any reason to trust others given their short life histories. It will be a slow process of having a meaningful relationship with these guys!

I miss everyone at home! It's always tough going back after having you all back again in my life for two weeks! Please respond to me as soon as you can and tell me about what's going on with you!!! Really, right NOW- GO!!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Birthdays in new places

Welp, nope, I'm still in the 'everything's great' phase!! I can't believe how blessed I am here with incredible roommates, church community, coworkers and job....anything else you can think of. Really.
My birthday was last weekend. You probably know this because if you're reading this, I bet you're one of the many who sent me something great in the mail-- I was totally spoiled ALL day! I got to sleep in, go for a nice run, come back to find a big bright green package from Aleesh which ended up being crammed full of pictures, incredible art projects and candy. I also got some great decor and millions of other things as usual from m + d. Thank you all for sending me cards, packages and love on my BD! We got to go to this art fair in 'the plaza' which is the fancy part of KC, which was like a saturday market only less hippy and more ritzy. There is quite a spectrum of people in KC, like any other city. It is interesting how close the plaza is from our own neighborhood, which has a reputation of being sketchy. Apparently there is also a specific road that divides a white neighborhood from a black one. I didn't know that still existed. One of the more overt ways racism is showing itself in our post modern 'progressive' society. We can all do our part to change. Anyway! We got to go to a park and have a picnic- it was the prettiest midwest fall day ever- mid 70's and sunny and crisp. We saw 3 wedding parties go by- apparently it's the park to get married. Then we got to go to cheesecake factory and have some INCREDIBLE appetizers and peanut butter heaven cheesecake. Good day. yep. I love the girls I live with. We get along really well and we're all super considerate and good at keeping up the house all together and talking about things that matter, or don't! It's great. We just lost a housemate- who was a big piece of my time here getting introduced to KC. We all miss him lots. We'll be getting a new housemate soon too. He sounds like a really nice guy who has traveled and done a lot of service so hopefully he'll serve all of us : ) just kidding! We're excited to see who our new house friend will be!

The biggest deal with work right now has been the execution of the health fair, aka the events of the year. We were calling around to get local organizations who service to youth to be our exhibitors and getting donations for snacks and water and tying down dental screeners, etc. This adds up to a good 50 calls a day- many to annoyed people who did in fact get the message, but skipped over it on purpose until they happened to pick up the phone at my call! But I feel worse for the people in the cubes around me who could probably give my schpeal better than I could by the end of day 1! But the first fair went great and was totally worth all the repetition- we caught a number of kids who needed emergency dental care, and had good snacks (though not very healthy for being a health fair) and booths that were worth while for the kids of KCK public schools. My role on the day of is basically to play games with the kids when they're done with the booths!! My favorite! I have to say- I'm not the best facilitator. One of my coworkers said they couldn't tell me apart from the middle schoolers because we were just all playing together. I love it! It's great to have fun, active things to do to connect with the kids. We've been tallying hundreds of student evaluations from the fair, and a vast majority say they "liked the fair a lot". I like to attribute their to playing games with me : ) Ha! One health fair down, 13 to go!

Today I got to do an intake evaluation for a 15 year old kid who was caught as a minor in posession of drugs and was court mandated to come to see if he needs treatment. He obviously did not, and only needed to learn how to find better things to do with his friends every once in a while. The poor kid wants to play football this season and these 'drug prevention' classes may get in the way of that. This is just crazy because one of the best ways to keep kids out of drugs is for them to be involved in school stuff that directs their energy in positive directions. How do you balance that out!? The poor kid was just caught at the wrong place at the wrong time. Better caught now than when it's a problem however.

Way to make it all the way to this point! I hope you're doing well also. Keep me posted on what's happening with you!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Work and everyday life

It's been incredible here. I think I'm just coming down from the 'everything's perfect' phase!
We went on a completely random trip to the Missouri river, where we found a little inlet to camp on! We swam in the really nasty water- one of my roommates still isn't sure if he got some kind of fungus on his face from the river! We hung out and played phase 10 for probably 3 hours

We're involved in a church here where we've already been invited to an awesome concert: sweet honey in the rock, and Mama Mia the musical this weekend (tonight!!) as well as a canoeing trip and had a church retreat yesterday! All are gifts to us as the new MVSers coming in!

It turns out that Mennonites (the denomination of the church, and the volunteer service I'm here with) are pretty much my never realized faith identity! They are into jutice, eradicating poverty, being sustainable, living simply, AND playing games, singing songs (hymns with lots of harmony), having potlucks, and hanging out with people....which is basically a short summary of what I fill my life with!!! Along with their belief in and love for God of course! I've had a good time getting to know the 'culture' of being Mennonite- even though I am not quite one yet! I stumbled into something new and perfect though!

I started work at Associated Youth Services (AYS) last Tuesday, and it is good so far! Not stressful, and great co-workers and atmosphere, but not as much interaction with the kids as I had hoped this far. It's only the beginning. I got to sit in on AYS Academy- an alternative school for the kids who have been long-term suspended or in jail. We only have 2 students so far because the regular school just started. They were very well behaved being only 2 kids surrounded by probably 5 teachers. It's incredible what more personalized school can do for kids. I got to do a house visit to a foster child's home with their case worker- who was incredible. This little girl and the case worker were friends, their conversation was great and healthy and positive and though this girl has about every issue in the world at the age of 11, she seems to be really well supported and has so much hope! It was really inspirational for me in terms of maybe going into social work. 10 points for the social work side of my potential future!

I also got to hang out with one of the girls who is in the drug and alcohol treatment program (ADAPT). Each of the kids in the program are required to have 3 hours of recreational activity a week, so I got to go with the ADAPT counselor to this arcade place where we enjoyed an all you can eat buffet and played games! And it was 'work'! It reminded me of going to Game Works with New Horizons youth in Seattle, and made me feel at home. The youth was sweet, and rough around the edges, but for the most part easy to be with and seemed like she was motivaed to be on her way up in her short life, along with many of her other friends. She is living in an independent living apartment, which is great for someone like her to be able to adjust to and take responsibility for. I hope I get to see her again soon! The being a Psychologist side of my potential future gained 10 points when I hung out with the ADAPT counselor- she was incredible and loves her job. I got to see the addiction treatment curriculum, and the healing conversations you could have with these kids is so incredible. yep. 10 points for the Psych. side for sure. This is going to be a decisive year for me eventually - hopefully!

But mostly, I spend the days reading info on the job and the facets of AYS, in meetings, and working on the health fairs that go around the Kansas City KS school district. They are actually a HUGE deal! Every school takes a whole day to cycle all their kids through this fair hosted by AYS to get dental, optical, and general health screenings, with 30 community exhibitors to promote healthy lifestyle choices to the kids in the Wyandot county; one of the poorest and least healthy in the state of KS. I've been calling to get donations of bottled water, as well as to try and get a massage therapist to do a massage or alignment booth. It's super relaxed and low-pressure for me so far, which is good for me to start with because I'm not usually very smooth at transitioning into new large amounts of responsibility- or responsibility at all really : )

I miss my family and friends! I spend a bit of time praying for them, on the phone with them, and just thinking about them in general...oh home...

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Camp Orientation

Camp Mennoscah
MVSers from all over the US met up for camp/orientation at camp Mennoscah near Witchita, KS. We were lucky and only had to drive 3 hours instead of fly over from San Francisco or New York like other MV's. I love being with my roommates. All four of us girls drove together and talked about life and funny stories to politics and denomenational backgrounds. When I got to camp, I found out that just about everyone doing this program is completely incredible. It's interesting how much in common you have with people who are strangers but are joined by a similar passion to volunteer for a year with the underprivilidged, and love Jesus.

We were trained for half-days in conflict management for our "units" aka- communal houses, the finance workings of Mennonite Mission Network, the Americore paperwork, cross-cultural differences, adaptation for our diverse neighborhoods, and a full day was devoted to anti-racism training. It was all really important, and was mostly just discussions and reading articles or stories. We made timelines since the beginning of the US to today of negative racial movements (segregated schools, hate crimes, slavery, etc.) and the positive forces working against them (underground railroad, Rosa Parks, Emancipation proclamation, jazz, etc.). We even read about the Mennonite's decision to stay out of the civil rights movement and how they are not involved enough today in desegregating in many places and ways. I realized I know SO little about the history of the US and its influences on anti-racism today. One of the most interesting articles we read and discussed was called "I am not your diversity". It discussed how patronizing it is to go the other direction- simply want people of different ethnicities at our churches, speaking at conferences, or entering our communities only to increase 'diversity' for a self-serving relief of guilt, or a cheap and lazy way of increasing stats or yet again reinstating the power of the majority. If someone is asked to speak at an event to 'increase diversity' this is still going only skin deep, and is in no way a compliment to the individual! We are to make a point of learning and adapting to cultures, understanding people, working out relationships, finding their beauty and facing our own stereotypes and prejudices. It changed my thinking before coming back to a very multi-cultured neighborhood and job (which I still haven't started yet, not until after labor day).

Other than the training, we played a lot of games basically! Soccer, ultimate frizbee, volleyball, ping-pong, and group games like 4 on a couch, and screaming ninjas (if you don't know what it is- find out! It's great!), and played card games all evening! There was a pool to swim in everyday with a diving board to flip and jump off of. If you know me at all, you know that it was my kind of camp!! On the last night of camp, us girls (there were probably 25 of us) had a great little bonding time together with some empowering convo : ) In the meantime the guys didn't know what to do with themselves so they set us up an outdoor dance party. This lasted quite a few hours of wonderfulness under lightning and the stars! We were all sweaty and drained by the time the threat of a big storm came on the news. We had a bonfire with smores and it trickled some rain- that was it for my first midwest storm! Apparently it missed us.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

the beginning!

Welp, here I am in Kansas City, MO!

Arriving!
After semi-tearfilled goodbyes to Michelle and my parents, I left from the Portland airport to Dallas, TX, then to the KC airport. I got to sit by some beautiful families with kids who were all into each other and were so cute! It made it easier to leave my family being able to play with a baby and talk to little kids again. As soon as I arrived, two of my housemates Levi and Tina were there to greet me, yelling down the empty halls of the airport "are you monica?!" We hugged and were excited to have met up without any contact info or pictures!

Our whole house had arrived in KC within two hours! We got a preliminary tour of downtown, and after all the not-impressive things I heard about it, I was shocked with how truly cool it is! It had big city things like neighborhoods with all different feels, lots of coffee shops, cool restraunts, and a big beautiful library, but not too much traffic or crowded streets that are common in large cities!
Emily and I were exploding when we made the turn down our street to see our house because we had been imagining what it would be like for so long! I was expecting something pretty old, small and run down in the middle of a lower-end neighborhood, but the place is beautiful! I'll post pictures. It's a classic KC neighborhood with long, skinny houses- ours is a white colonial style house on the corner that was once the parish for our church on the opposite side of the block. It's a small stone and stained galss yet fairly liberal, post-modern Menonite church called Rainbow Mennonite.
That first night, our roommates already had dinner made, so we ate some delicious sweet potato fries and curry chicken with homemade bread made by our area director Tonia. We all get along well and are all very different people, but share a desire to serve, change some aches in the world, and live simply and joyfully! We have some good plans from house parties to camping adventures. This weekend, we're hiking around Lexington until we find a river to camp around. It's incredible to not have anything to hold me back from going out and having a new adventure!

We also had a week of Orientation I'll fill you in on next posting!